PRIORITIES

It's been awhile since I've written anything except break up love letters. My plate has been full and my cup has runneth over and down over the table and out the front door. My heart and soul have been wounded and my self doesn't trust my self right now. Every situation in my life has taught me more and more to trust my own instincts. They are always right!

Oh I'm not sorry or full of regrets. I'm just disappointed. I think I can tend to ignore the flags because I don't want to see them. To thine own self be true. That to me means don't live in the idea of how good you WANT things to be. See things for what they are and if your not happy about something don't act like it didn't happen! Recognize it and see it for what it is. We can especially do this in relationships. Don't make someone a priority that makes you an option! I think I want so much to be in love and happy that I forget how deserving I am. I forget I'm worth it. My expectations aren't too high! I used to say " I don't care what number I am, but can I at least get a number!! Now I say I need to be very high on the list!

Now that this "season" of my life has past I want to focus on my family for they love me unconditionally. I hate that I have put them on the back burner. That is a prime example of making someone else a priority.

So I will look forward to finding my way in this world with my family by my side. The rest is all an option.

Ok all smushy bullshit aside I can't wait to be with the three people I love most in this world! Those Smith boys. They saved my life :)